Just a random thought...

I realized a couple of days ago that I don't actually remember the last time I went outside the house. Which is bad. It is possible that the last time was on 31st of October... Which is worse. I don't even know what I have been doing for the last couple of weeks. 

Oh wait, yes I do. Roleplaying with my Guild in WoW and playing Skyrim. *Nods* It's good stuff. 

Still... I probably should have gone out at some point. But I just never felt like it. And now after yesterday and urgh I definitely don't feel like it. So I shall just hide inside with my games for a bit longer. 

Buuut, until I can get out and actually do something productive for once... Here's a pic from one of my most recent excursions to the world outside my room. 

Photographer: Josefine Jönsson - josefinejonsson.com

Model & Styling: Me!

Makeup and Hair: Katrin Unge

Oh and...

Hat: Imperial Fiddlesticks Emporium! (In other words... Me as well!)

Sometimes I amaze myself.

Sometime I really, truly amaze myself with how badly I can manage to screw things up.

I woke up at around 11.15 today. I had been having a nightmare and it was my father's voice that finally woke me. He was wondering if I shouldn't get up already if I was going to the 5th anniversary of the Swedish Lolita Forum, Gothloli.se. A celebration that started with a museum visit at noon. I almost panicked right there and then but I managed to convince myself to calm down and that I could get ready and still make it for the Afternoon Tea at 3pm. I had over three hours so really it shouldn't be a problem. I could take my time, calm down and get presentable.

Then at around 12.00 I got a text message from my hat making instructor saying that they missed me at the fascinator course. That started at 10 this morning...

I had completely forgotten about it.

Cue panic, anxiety - you name it. The anniversary celebration, although fun, only cost me about 100 SEK so it wasn't that horrible a thing to miss. The hat course on the other hand... my father payed a lot of money for it and I have now completely screwed it up. It's only two days and missing one would mean that... There's barely any point in going at all tomorrow. Though I probably will anyway. For my father's sake. But loosing out on half the course, probably including ALL of the basic knowledge... Fuck. How is it that I always manage to pull stunts like this?

I haven't felt so incredibly useless in a long time.

Comfort Shopping

Right, sorry for being so absent lately. Things happen, stress occurs and uh yeah... after that exhaustion set in and kept me from doing just about everything. Also, Skyrim appeared in my mailbox so I suppose that might explain parts of it. 

Anyway, things were starting to look up and I was planning on writing a looong post about all the good stuff that has happened lately and upload pictures and stuff from Kultcon. Unfortunately, just when I was thinking of doing that (yesterday) things took a turn for the worst again. And by that I mean Worst with a capital W. Old stuff that I thought had been long since buried just resurfaced all of a sudden and yeah... it wasn't nice. So not nice, in fact, that I am seriously contemplating comfort shopping....

The only problem is that I don't have all my money in my bank account so I can't actually place the order until I make a trip down to the bank. ._. 

Also I can't decide what color I want......

Oh and when I have time I might write something nerdy about Skyrim and roleplaying in WoW... but not now.